Life is doing good for now. Love, there were ups and downs. But I am, we are still standing strong together.
Keep that aside, things are fabulous for us.

Anyways, I be ending my school life in less than two freaking weeks. Just the thought of it, scares me. How?
I dont know where to head to after graduation. Let time decide all that, I guess. :)

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Di dirimu aku menemukan
Yang mencintaiku
Yang menyayangiku
Di dirimu aku ketakutan
Kau biarkanku
Kau tinggalkanku

Bila kamu tak lagi denganku
Ku tak tahu apa ‘tuk jalani hidupku
Bila memang kau pergi dariku
Ku tak ada lagi di dunia ini

Mengertikah kau siang malamku
Dan tangis tawaku
Kau semua hidupku
Pandang aku pandanglah hatiku
Aku tak mampu melangkah tanpamu

Bukan ku tak punya harga diri
Tapi dirimu begitu berarti
Kaulah nafasku engkau harga diriku
Mengerti aku….

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Tears roll when I listened to this song. And I know how much I hurt my Boyf.
No worries, he never hurt me as much as I hurt him. Everytime we wanted to walk out from each other lives, a minute later, we realised, everytime we talk, walk, every gesture of us remind us of each other.

These six months made a permenant change to my life. Without knowing, its already hal of the year knowing and being with him.
I learnt alot from him, and he showed me real love. Fuck to my other relationships, nothing beats this affair of ours.

He bleed, cried, hurt himself cause of me. Which Boyf dare do that?

Hidayat Al-Nurri, the lyrics above is especially for you. I am nothing without you. Cause now, whenever Im out, people will ask, " Yat mane?"
You are already a part of me. And forever it will be. :)

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As of tonight, Boyf will take leave to especially celebrate, go out with Sara Baby to celebrate her belated birthday. Update soon :)

Its going to be twentieth of the month soon. On that date, it will be our official fifth month of loving together.
Who could ever expect this fairy tale to begin at the first place.
Me, or himself, never even want to fall in love together. To share everything together.

Its great to be single, but its wonderful and awesome to be in love. That is to the right one.
I used to thought to myself that maybe, maybe I will never be in love, and just treat life like a game.
I fooled around, broke many hearts, got my heart wounded a few times.
But thats all what they say parts and parcel of life and love.
Also, I know I was too young to be in love, the right way.

But when I first knew Boyf, I already had this special feeling, like I was happy whenever he's there with me.
I know his past, and he knows about mine. We have nothing to hide.
Cause Im one who set aside the bad past to have a better future.
I felt safe, to be in his arms every now and then.

But yes, he have permanent markings on him, but I chose him for who he was, and not all those mistakes he did before.
Eyes stared, disagreements from family and words spread.
We had to deal with it, it wasnt easy. But we fought, for our love.
We had countless of arguments, fights and screamings.
What's love without all that, right?

But we know better to set our differences, and to made it up to each other.
This love is a challenging one. I dare say I love you forever, cause that's straight from my heart.
People, friends, strangers even may see, maybe, just maybe, we are just fooling around.
But God knows what we have been through these few months.

Every night, I pray to God to help us through the rough times we face present and future.
We know its not going to be a smooth road, but a rocky one.
But I am here, holding on to my promises and words, that I am always here be it the shine or rain.

I am no perfect girl, but I am here trying to make things work for us.
I love my boyfriend, endlessly. Despite me telling him that all the time.
I cant help, cause when you're in love, it just happens.

Our very First picture. 

I know I have not been updating much. Blame it on my busy schedule of working, or Im just plain lazy to be online. Haha!
Some may ask, how's my life? Awesome much! All thanks to those people that matters.

Had double date with the boy's good friend and his super cute girlfriend, Qyl.
Had an awesome suprise for my birthday from the boys. Something happened, but what happened there we leave it there.

I am pretty much am proud and happy having this boy around. Look what he did, to make my birthday a success.
Your boyfriend is sweet, mine is much sweeter! Bluek! Hahaha!

Im lazy to elaborate much. Below are pictures as follow.

Love both of these shots! It wasnt intentionally. If anyone ride with us, this is how we always react when we're driving. Sweeeet kan? I know! Hahaha.

My super big cake. Like org tunang nyer cake kan?! Hahaha. Thanks to the boy. I was touched. If you can read the wordings. :)

The MASTER. Who made it happened.

Surprise! Pardon me for my ugly face, I was from work, no make up. Hahaha. Ape la birthday girl!

My favourite people!

The close ones.

The whole bunch.

And my two favourite and awesome people. I miss my Sara Baby. :( Also my girls!

We've been through tons within these four months being officially together.
No doubt, I love you. And stop saying I dont. Cause only God knows.

I am a hot headed person, very argumentative, and always wanting to win every single time.
I thank you for being there everytime. I dont want to sound like I am the goodd girlfirend, and you're the bad one.

I admit I am selfish. But you're always there by my side, making jokes, to bring us out from the tense.
We always fight,  but we always remember that how much we argue, we need each other.

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Anyways, yours truly just turned sweet nineteen a few hours ago. Haha.
After work, I cabbed down to Airport Swensen to have supper for twelve. Had a feast with the family.

Simple but nice. :) Thanks Daddy and Mummy!

So now thats left is for the birthday chalet my dearest Boyf organised for me. Hehehe. Cant wait.

I havent been updating regularly since Im busy working and rarely am online whenever Im home. So yeah.

To all the lovely tags from my dearest Q'babes, I appreciate much. You guys are the best. And to the other loveliest people, thanks for the concern. Hehehe.

Tags, and relinking will be done as soon as Im not lazy. Hahaha.

I better go to sleep now. Good Night ! :)

Incase you guys forgotten yours truly 'cute' face. Hehehe. Lazy to upload all the latest picture already.

I dont know what to feel, I dont know what to think.
One second, things will be delightful for us.
While the other, I just dont see it fair for it to be happening to us.

Ive never asked for much. Just for them to know you.
You know they can never bring to the fact that we are happy.
I felt so hopeless, weak, terrified and al those unwanted feelings when reality hit us at the rock bottom.

I knew one day this day will come, but its much more earlier than I expected.
And truth is, its much more painful for both of us to swallow.
We made our own 'getaway' plans, cause I believed what we have is love.
No ordinary love. People may misinterpret us to just being in a cliche monkey love.

But those close to us know we are verymuch in love, despite all that we've been through.
Sometimes I just feel like ending my time now.
I dont want to face another day with fear, tear and knowing things will not get better.  I am not that strong.
But neither am I weak, cause Ive been dealing with these every single day for the past weeks (Self motivation!)

I know what I am doing, all my dreams will be vnaish to thin air.
All those dreams of having a perfect, rich, happy family.
All of it where every single thing are wll placed and planned.
My wish to have my guardians by my side on my wedding day.
But I know its going to be worth it, every single thing Im doing.

Dear God, I am only human who does sins. I rarely even think about you sometimes,
And you know at this point of time I need you, to show me and give me the strength.
I know what Im doing is all wrong. But you know my intention wasnt evil from the beginning.
If every plans fail, I still know, I have you.

As I penned down every single words, these tears cant help but to pour.
I am weak, I know.
But this experience made me stronger. Noone can ever know how much it pains me every time this happened.

Maybe by now some of you will get a picture of what I  am facing and going through. But, all of that are only assumptions.
The truth lies between me, myself and I.
:)