Its the twentieth of the month again. Alhamdulillah, till this date, Im still with my irritating but loving Boyf! Hehehe.

Things have always been rough on us. I know Ive not only been a bad girlfriend, but also a bitch.
When we fight, I turned into a monster literally. I shout vulgarities, I started punching,screaming and biting you.
Yes, I am that violent. I know you're weak, and you let me continue till Im satisfied. You will ask me to stop only if you really cant take it.

Only God knows, my heart hurts whenever I used violence towards you. Whatever reasons we fought, you're always trying to talk things out. But I know Im a stubborn girl. I rarely listen. Its always entering from the right and then exit to the left.
I want to change, to make this relationship better. Better for all of us.

Hopefully, Insyallah.

Anyways, Baby fetched me at Woodlands yesterday after he booked out. How sweet can my Boyf get? That's why I love him.
We walked around Causeway point, and then took bus back to Tampines. Bought tickets for movies.
We had plenty time left, so we went to my place area. Had our late lunch. Then bought something to eat for little brother. Went home to put my stuffs.

Boyf passed the food to little brother. And then we proceed back to Tampines Mall. Caught Paranormal Activity. It wasnt much to expect really. Wasnt that scary much. I expect more. After movies, took a breather, and then we had my favourite ice cream. Kissed, bid goodbye, and back home.

As of today, me and Ili Baby went to Airport to have lunch together. Head to Parkway to window shopped. Back to Tampines. Thanks mok for the treat. Love ya much. Met Mai Darling for a while. Then meting her later at night for dinner. Im so tired really. My feet are screaming. Haha!

Whatever it is, I just wanna give a shout out to my man, my everything. HAPPY THIRD BABY. Meet tomorrow pleaseeee. :)

A happy weekend. Day start off kinda rough with Boyf. But eventhough how much we fought, we still kiss and make up. =)

Met him under the void deck, packed him some home cooked food. Had lunch, then off to Pari Ris to get car from Mama. Fetched dear Sara Brady from her place, and off to Boyf's place, to what else but karaoke. Hehe! Had fun singing our lungs out. And then drove off back to Tampines to fetch the other girls and get the other car.

Had another major tiff with Boyf, but we managed to settle it before meeting them :) Head off to Arab St for Teh Tarik and talk cock session. Zul was being an ass most of the time. Had a good laugh. Close to 1, we went to Town to fetch Shiera from work. Planned was to head to Boat Quay to see drunk people. Haha. But the there's no parking for us. We then headed for supper over at Rivervale's Spize. After all that, headed to Marina Barrage.

Head home close to five. Super fun, hilarious Saturday for all of us. :)

Pictures are at facebook. Im lazy to upload all of it over here.

Skipped school on Tuesday, and met up with Boyf and girlfriends. First off, me and Boyf met up, and drove to nearest MacDonald for breakfast.
After that we went to some place to drive around as we were out so early. Hehe!
After all that, after five, pick girlfriend Sara Brady from her work place and then proceed to meet the others.

Met Shiera and Zul over at Simpang Bedok. Boyf treated us to Seafood. And we were really famished. Hehe!
Thanks dearest Boyf!
After our dinner, we went to Simei to fetch Shahri, and we proceed to Geylang to get our cigarettes.
Proceed to Parkway to wondow shopped. And then to pool.

Send them home, and I have to drive back home alone! Hehe.

Celebrated Mama's 42nd over at the family's restaurant. Bought Mama a cake and a rose.
How sweet can I get? Hahaha!

Saturday's plan to karaoke over at Boyfriend's place with girlfriend. Cant wait!
:)

Went out with the girls plus boys yesterday. Met after seven. Proceed to Pasir Ris to get car keys from Mama.
I was the driver of the day la. Since Mama wont let just anyone to drive her car. Haha.
Picked Shiera up over at Raffles Place. Then headed down to Arab Street to accompany Shiera and Zul for dinner.
Head to Pasir Ris close to eleven. Then send Mama home, proceed to Safra for bowl since Downton was packed.

Home after that. Sorry Boyf I told you all the plans last minute. I know you're mad, worried about me cause you love me.
I love you. :)
I cant wait to meet Boyf on Tuesday! Going spend the whole day with him. But I have to go back to school as there's assesment.
But its okay, I will be driving on that day. Hehehe! Cant wait. I miss you much, Boyf. Been two weeks already.

Im scared of the future for our relationship. I know Im your first serious  girlfriend. I should have shown you what love really meant.
But Im one who spell trouble and hot tempered. But you stick through despite the sun shine or stormy weather.
You're been a great boyfriend. You know I depend on you so much,and I life isnt much the same if you were to go.

I just wished I could stop time, not let it go to the future. :(

I have been thinking. I am coming to nineteen. Yes Im a late bloomer. But I have did many things that I am proud of myself even though Im young.
O levels, pursuing a diploma, getting a license. That's more than I expected of me to become.

To think back I never really planned on what to do for all those achievements. Yes, I may born lucky to have a family who can support me for all the right things.
They give me the money, and I have to strive and work hard when Im in the race.

Im graduating reaaaal soon. Like in less than six months. I am still unsure of what to do. I would love to continue my studies. Preferably local, but their expectations were so high, so better dont bother. Haha!
To work straight away? Its scary though. I gotta admit I am scared of entering the working environment.
I wanted to go overseas. I know my parents will support me if its the best for me.
But there's too many 'what ifs' in this mind.

Boyf is not being agreeable to it, cause I know he will miss me. But its all about the trust, baby.
I wont change if Im over at someone else's country. Im doing, pursuing my degree for the benefit for me, my family and us.
That's my dream. I want to outshine. I know Im a bummer when it comes to attending classes and studying. But who doesn't want to be bright?
And who doesnt want to make their family proud and also have at least  a degree?

I gotta discuss this with my parents pronto! Its scary, I tell you.
Haiz, Dear God, please let the bestest option be for me.

Anyways schol has been great. Unbelievable, yes? HAHA!
For last week, I attended school for the whole 5 days. Amazing much?
And I got an A for an engineering module. Im proud, for the right reasons. Hehehe.

It may not be a big deal for you guys, but it is to me. Im not a bright student especially when it comes to engineering. Hahaha.
I miss my Boyf. We're not going to meet for this week. Army men and their stupid duties. Haha!
I want my Boyf to be out! And be here by my side.

Speaking of it, I saw 5,yes freaking FIVE of my exes/flings when Im on the way home. Only God knows how I felt.
I dont wish to meet them ever again. That was my past. So reminder to self, Do Not Go Back Home After 6!
If not there's too many unforeseen stuffs you may encounter. HAHAHAHA!

Speaking of which, I need to rush through my report for FYP. Its so draining me out, man!
Tons of datelines, presentations and whats not. Understanding Tests are here too! Im so drained out.
Lucky enough Ive been meeting my girls on Monday and Tuesday. At least it gets my mind off schol and work loads.

Mama's birthday is this weekend, what to doooo!

I miss my mat rep boyfriend. HAHAHA!
Im happy cause there's less fights from us. Love you much!
Meet you soon love, and lets go eat Carls Jr ok mok?